Thursday, June 23, 2011

It's raining

Sometimes you just need to sit around, and do nothing. You need to sit and listen to the rain fall, and the thunder rumble. The old dogs will curl up with you, and the puppy will pace for a while before finally resigning herself to her fate. Occasionally you'll catch glances from her, while she's curled up on top of an old dog, with this look on her face of "I'm so bored, Mom, I could just die." You'll have to make it up to her later.

You'll sit here and think about your daughter moving around in your tummy. You think about all the work you have to do before she gets here, but not now. It's raining. Maybe you need to go work on her room. Maybe you need to work on your life, so you can stay home with her one day. Maybe you need to drive down the street to that Chinese place, and pick up dinner. Maybe you're soaking up these moments of nothingness before they're gone.

Monday, April 18, 2011

At this moment

I know it's been just about forever since I was here last. I hope I'm back to stay this time. I always feel like I have SO much to say, but I never feel like saying it.

Right at this very moment, I am so incredibly happy. I'm on my favorite spot on my couch. The sun is pouring in. My flowers are all growing. I have the three most wonderful dogs curled up with me. The little one, our new addition, with half her delicate body and her head across my lap. She's only been here since Christmas, and she has wedged herself into this family as deeply as a little dog could go. I'll tell her story soon enough.

Papu, Jet and Holly. My three loves.

We have also added something else to our family. Our littlest one is 18 weeks along, and will be here in September.


When I'm stressed, or worried, I tend to shut down. I haven't dealt well with the idea that my life is about to change in a big way. I haven't drawn, or even picked up my camera in months. I don't like that. It's not like me. I hope by having this space to share things it will inspire me to go back to what makes me happy, instead of sitting and brooding and agonizing over silly little things like crib bedding.

So hope to hear more from me. I truly intend to be around and stop lurking like a stranger.

And now I have to remove myself from my comfy spot, and my snoozing dogs, and make dinner. Such is life.